Wow, it's been so long since I last visited my site....

I would say the greatest irony of life is me.

I resigned in my somewhat stable, high-paying day job as a PR staff in one of the most powerful government offices (read: it has something to do with oil and power) to be a call center agent. And no matter how hard my parents beg for me to try my luck and go abroad, I would never entertain the thought of leaving my country to slave my butt off to earn big bucks.

Okay, so many of my friends would really want to hit me in the head to see if I would wake up one day and regret the most stupid decision I have done to ruin my "ever-stellar career". And my parents woul even drop not-so-subtle hints on just finishing up my passport application in case I change my mind and decide to search for greener pastures in a foreign land. But still, to their consternation, my answer would still be no.

Did I lose my chance to become a successful career woman by becoming a call center agent? Would I not be successful by staying here in the Philippines to work? Maybe, maybe not. But this would not be a defense for all the decisions I have made, nor would it be a bitter realization that yes, I am stupid and naive to think that there would be hope for a better future in the Philippines. I just want to say a piece of my mind.

When I was in college, I was exposed to views and ideas of nationalistic abd liberal instructors, (who seem to ignore the continuous brain drain), about loving your country and be part of the society change. Very romantic, I said, parang telenovela. Right there and then, I have resolved to work in the government, committing all my talents and skills to help my country in small ways I could.

So I tried to get an internship in a government agency, and was assigned in the PR department, doing issue management and press releases. At that time, there was a new round of oil prices and government is trying to hush the public clamor for raise, from market prices to wage increase. I was full of ideas, and driven with a purpose.

After that, I moved to work in a government-owned and controlled corporation that mainly operates the transmission line system of the country. I had an above-average salary, and I had a job that is really related to my studies. Many would tell I was blessed. Or so I thought.

My two years as a public servant opened my eyes to the harsh realities of putting power and fame in the wrong hands. I would encounter situations wherein high-ranking officials would squeeze their way to get what they want, having the false illusion of being God to lesser mortals like us.

Case in point: One high-ranking official, upon learning that our agency would be holding a summit in his area, asked us to include him in our list, get him a plane ticket immediately (first class, nonetheless!), and book him in a suite with the first-class hotel, all of these charged against our company's meager budget. And when I was about to ask for the documents for this travel (government officials need to pass documents as proof that their travels are part of their work-related duties), his staff told us that this official won't be back for six months! And the summit was two months ago!

This is just a minor situation that Filipinos tend to overlook. They are in power anyway, we would tell ourselves. But come to think of it, if all officials would be like this, then its no wonder why we are in a really precarious situation, our debt amounting to trillions of pesos. I tried to ask my friend how many zeros in a trillion. He said, "too many to mention". And if this debt would be divided amongst us, my still-unborn great great great grandson would be debt-ridden!

I do not see life in a rose-colored glass, nor I am naive to ignore the realities of it. I am just an optimist. But there are times wherein idealism and optimism are not enough to constitute change, much more in a society whose thinking is confined to please everyone she thinks would be a saviour to her ailing economy, a messiah that would save her from damnation.

But I would never lose faith in my people. That is why despite all the pleadings and requests for me to apply and search for greener pastures overseas, I still do not give in. I want my talents and abilities to be used in improving the lives of my countrymen, not in a foreign land whose neantherdal mindsets still judge you by the color of your skin, not with what you have in your gray matter.

So here I am as a call center agent, listening to America's problems with their computers, ranging from techically-impossible to downright stupid. Ironic, isn't it?

Acrostic Love
by: wicked_moonlight


Kiss me.
A myriad of emotions
resurfaced as I
look into your probing eyes.

Asking myself why,
Even after all these years,
Unexplained feeling of
nothingness slowly
infuse my whole system.

Chaotic thoughts filled my mind
as I returned your kiss,
crying inside
as I search for
reasons, why
loving you seemed
oh so long ago.

Seven years.
Realization struck me
as I look into your face.

Memorizing you
in my mind as I
reach for your hand
even for the very last time.

zzzzzz.

Morpheus


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You have a free soul! As all the souls go, yours is
the most free-spirited and adventurous. You
like camping, hiking, or interaction with other
people. Your a social butterfly, but not
because of your style, but because of your
willingness to communicate with everyone. You
probably have close friends who can rely on you
because you always seem to know whats going on
in the world. You love music and are
free-spirited and someone fun to be around. A
born leader and great explorer-dont ever
change-the world needs more people like you.


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You are a RAVENCLAW!

As a Ravenclaw and as an NFP, you are imaginative,
idea-oriented, and value intelligence. You may
be a non-conformist, and are probably good at
seeing new ways of doing things. You are
insightful and perceptive, and as an empathic
person who highly values harmony, you usually
try to avoid conflict. Of course, you may
enjoy participating in heated debates - but
only as long as they remain on an intellectual
level and not a personal level. In general,
you are open-minded and curious, and set high
standards for yourself.


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Ok, I just had a sup call with a very irate and stupid customer who doesn't even know the meaning of ethics. Even a five year-old would know what good manners and right conduct mean...But not this guy. He was really rude, even downright asked the technician if he knows what he's doing!!! The nerve! I bet he doesn't know the difference between a mouse and a keyboard!!! hahaha!

Just saying hello for this new day!

Ok fine. I got infracted.....I don't damn care really.

A while ago, I received a text from my boyfriend that UP lost to La Salle by 10+ points. I was at the middle of EDSA then, waiting for the bus to work. And I felt really sad, the sight of finally seeing my alma mater in the Final Four slot vanished into thin air.

Yes, I am mourning.

I am mourning for the loss of my alma mater to a school whose claim to fame are their parking lots, skyrocketing tuition fees, and immense egos. I am downtrodden that after six straight games (even beating the #1 slot Blue Eagles), and perking the hopes of all Iskos and Iskas, the chance of singing UP Naming Mahal in the finals is now a vague memory.

Of course, I still believe in my team and my school. After all, last year we were 7th in ranking, and we were supposed to be more than that, considering that we have acquired the services of (supposed to be) very good rookie and high-profile talent Jay-R Reyes. But alas, all he had were enormous ego and Lilliputian skills. Now he was woebegone! Good riddance!

But on second thought, come Sunday would be the ever-intense Cheerleading Competition! Hah, this time, we would tell them how winners work! So be forewarned, we are about to rule the dance floor...

...and it's gonna be my off tomorrow!!! yebah!

Okay, while I'm waiting for a customer to disturb my inner wah (thanks Portia!), I am thinking about going on a vacation. No, not the usual one-day getaway. I would rather have at least a week, or maybe a month (!) of just lazing around, thinking nothing but the peace and tranquility of being alone, just with the waves and water to accompany me in my deep slumber...(hay..)

But where would I go? Hmmm...i'll pretend (for a moment) that I am a filthy rich successful girl whose only purpose in life is to just spend all the money she has to wherever and whenever she pleases (wow, I think that is really GOOD!). So I check out some places where I could just be the Queen of my Universe....

1. AMANPULO--Amanpulo (peaceful island) embraces the entire sand and coral island of Pamalican, an hour's flight from Manila. The resort opened in 1993 with 40 casitas modelled after the Philippine bahay kubo dwellings. An idyllic, tropical haven for the beach lover, Amanpulo is set on its own private island surrounded by white-sand beaches, turquoise waters and a coral reef. All manner of watersports are available including diving, fishing and sailing.
--wow, very kewl. I have checked the site, and the pictures are all very enticing, to say the least. But good heavens, the rates are so high I can't even imagine! For a small hut, it would cost you about $525 a day, that would be about P29,000! But hey, I am rich, so I can afford it! hehehe! I am told that Tom Cruise and Nicole Kidman flew straight with a private jet just for a weekend escapade. But alas, even a weekend rendezvous did not save their marriage...tsk, tsk.

2. Hawaii--The island paradise. No wonder there are so many countries who want to covet this mysteriously exotic island, because aside from so many pineapples (hehe!), it is so rich in flora and fauna and fuel energy. This is also one of blessed states that don't practice DST, because of their abundance in enery. 'nuff about that, let's talk about beaches! Gosh, I have seen the beaches and they are so breathtaking. I could see myself lying in the sand in a two-piece, lounging and savoring the Pacific sun while sipping my fruit shake. Ah, heaven...

3. Fiji-- FIJI, one of the most beautiful and enchanting places in the world, is made up of nearly 300 islands. The third largest, TAVEUNI is the jewel of Fiji and rightfully lives up to its notoriety as the garden island. Fiji is blessed with clear blue lagoons, pristine rivers and mountains covered with verdant rainforest. Though development has come to some areas, for the most part the landscape in many areas has not appreciably changed. In short, the environment is an ideal setting for outdoor enthusiasts. Fiji's tranquil lagoons and varied coastline have become extremely popular with divers, snorkelers, surfers and as a place to safely kayak. The larger islands have also become an obligatory stop for birders and newly created national parks have opened up a great deal of land to trekkers. However one not need be a naturalist to appreciate this island nation's great outdoors. Golf, tennis and boating are quite popular both with locals and visitors as well.
--okay, 'nuff said.

Okay, here are just some of the places I would want to go if (and when) I have the moolah to go with it. But still, seeing these places even in pictures could satisfy my visual appetite. Hah, someday, I will rule these places and be their queen!!! hahaha!

Hay, I just finished my shift, and I'm off for two days! It was really tiring and I'm very sleepy right now, I could doze off here without me knowing...hehehe!

I always cry whenever I read sappy love stories, more so when it come to sappy, sentimenta movies. My friends would always tease me about it, and tell me not be carried away with escapist themes that would always have happy endings. But no matter how hard I try, my eyes would really mist over (that's an understatement!) and to make it stop would simply be torture.

When I learned that one of my favorite books, The Notebook would be made into a movie, I was really looking forward in seeing it. I have read the book so many times, and it affected me as poignantly as if I just read it the first time. And Nicholas Sparks is one remarkable writer, I just knew it would be an experience.

Of course, I know I would cry. What I didn't expect is that from the first scene down to the closing credits, I would be crying buckets of tears! The first scene was just fantastic, ala-Bench with the glorious sunset, matched with a music that would really melt the hearts of even the most cynical and skeptical person.

And then the story unfolds. As it unravel the story of Noah and Allie, how they met, how they fell in love, and how they found it again amidst the time passed and the odds they were against, I just wish I would also experience the magic of what they have. Until death, they were one, body and soul.

It is amazing how a story would shook you to your deepest core, and would make you realize how precious life can be, especially if you share it with the one you love. And, however skeptic I have become, there is still that small part that would still wish for a Prince that would share his life, his being and his soul with me. It may not be perfect, but we would try. And besides, perfect is boring, don't you think?

I am the Moon, the Queen of the Night Sky...

I am the moon, the Queen of Heavens reigning supreme when all are in their deep slumber. I am the embodiment of emotions, raging as I reach the peak of my fullness, then waning as I go back to my indiscernible self...
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Dark magician. You love the dark because of it's
beauty and just the life that no-one else sees.
Mysterious, calm, quiet... But that doesn't
mean you're not friendly!

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Haller! Start of my shift again ...hay, I am really sleepy right now...wish I was in bed again...and hugging my pillows and my blanket wrapped around my body...heaven...

I wish I'm in Baguio right now...the climate is just so conducive to sleeping...and I miss it so much ...what if I just work there? I have a friend who is really bent on convincing to work there...well, I didn't ask for much convincing anyway, I am really planning to relocate there...

But I would be leaving here my beloved boyfriend......and I know I will be missing him so much...hmm, what will I do?...woes, woes...


you were everything that I wanted, we were meant to be, supposed to be but we lost it, all this time you were pretending, so much for my happy ending

I conquer your dreams
and lock you into my world...
where dreams and reality
fuse into one.

So come with me
and join me...
and we will be together
in a surreal world of
FANTASY....

TeenWitch.com

As darkness unfolds, I cast the spell to the world and feel the magic it unravels...
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(I am trying to share this oath because I believe that as long as you don't harm anyone, you can do what you want. Read on...)

Bide the Wiccan laws ye must, in perfect love and perfect trust.
Live and let live—fairly take and fairly give.
Cast the Circle thrice about to keep all evil spirits out.
To bind the spell every time, let the spell be spake in rhyme.
Soft of eye and light of touch—speak ye little, listen much.

Deosil go by the waxing Moon—sing and dance the Wiccan Rune.
Widdershins go when the Moon doth wane, and the werewolf howls by the dread wolfsbane.
When the Lady’s Moon is new, kiss the hand to Her times two.
When the Moon rides ar Her peak, then your heart’s desire seek.
Heed the North wind’s might gale—lock the door and drop the sail.
When the wind comes from the South, love will kiss thee on the mouth.

When the wind blows from the East, expect the new and set the feast.
When the West wind blows o’er thee, departed spirits restless be.
Nine woods in the Cauldron go—burn them quick and burn them slow.

Elder be ye Lady’s tree—burn it not or cursed ye’ll be.
When the Wheel begins to turn, let the Beltane fires burn.

When the Wheel has turned to Yule, light the Log and let Pan rule.
Heed ye flower, bush and tree — by the Lady blessed be.
Where the rippling waters go, cast a stone and truth ye’ll know.
When ye are in dire need, hearken not to others’ greed.
With the fool no season spend, or be counted as his friend.
Merry meet and merry part — bright the cheeks and warm the heart.
Mind the Threefold Law ye should — three times bad and three times good.
When misfortune is enow, wear the blue star on thy brow.
True in love ever be, unless thy lover’s false to thee.
Eight words the Wiccan Rede fulfill — an ye harm none, do what ye will
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Since I was a child, I always have a fascination about magic. Witchcraft, astrology, and everything that pertains to the "other side" would always catch my attention. I even attempted to do some spells I have encountered, but I was not even able to get past the beginning stage.

But tonight, after giving this idea much thought and researching about the things i need to know about Wiccan life, I formally declare that this will be the start of my path of becoming a true witch. I know I still need to know a lot about this ancient tradition, but I will try to learn them all. And all the knowledge and learning that I would get would be used for the greater good.

So if there is anyone who could help me and be my mentor for my quest, I would be honored to be their student. And I will try to follow the Power of Three: Whatever you do to someone, it will come back to you threefolds.


no harm ye done, do what ye will...
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